i'm a witch

the sad thing is not about discovering that your PRINCE is already committed to someone else

what's truly pathetic is how you try to snatch the PRINCESS role for yourself. when in reality you're just the WITCH who gets in the way

from tumblr

oh my.. i never realize dat i'm actually a witch. 

notakaki: should open my eyes wider

tumblr

have i mentioned dat tumblr is amazing?? yup. i love tumblr so much coz sum of the posts are much related to me. it helps me to express my feelings and it's amazing how other peoples are facing the same probs as me.

let me share sum of da posts owite..

do u realize how hard i try for u? i put so much sacrifice into our relationship, i fight for us, and even improve on the things u tell me. yet u disregard that and act like i don't care. do u value me at all?

if i wanted sumone else, i'd find sumone else and be with them instead of trying to stay with u. i just want u. how can u not understand dat?

i used to say the exact same thing to him..

do u know dat when a boy breaks a girl's heart, its much, much, much more than u know it affected her? dat her tears are not only to show how much it hurt but to at least try to blur out the world so she can forget? dat she thinks every sleeping and waking moment wat da hell she did wrong? dat when she looks at the photos of u and her, she tries to tear it but can't because they're very beautiful memories to keep? dat she can't throw away the teddy bear n carefully preserved chocolate u gave her because u gave it to her? that whenever she thinks of the "i love u" words u told her, she mutters "i love u too" but realizes she can't say it anymore? dat its like the whole world tumbling before her very eyes? no. u don't know what it feels like. u don't know how it feels to be cheated, to be left, to be fooled. and its taken very seriously because, once a girl loves, a girl really loves.

on this day, Gods wants u to know.. that it's time u let go. yes, of course, u want to control so evrything happens in just the way u want it. but at the end of the day, we control nothing, it's all in God's hands, has always been, and always be. so, do wat u can, and then let go, and let God handle the rest.

maybe the ones dat we love leave us because sumone else is supposed to come into our lives, and those peoples will love us more. they won't hurt us or lead us on. they'll be the one person who will be able to right all the wrongs in our lives.

notakaki: sori la cz sume post asik emo2 je. tp dah aku mmg emo so kne la post bnda emo.. bak kata dia, aku ni drama queen. hrmmm

1 month

today dah 1 month aku kena cerai talak 3 *cz xboleh rujuk dh*. still sedih?? of coz la. 4 tahun tu. mana boleh lupa just like dat. lagi la bila alasan penceraian yang betul2 tak boleh terima. sekarang aku dah bole terima dah sikit2. if sebelum ni, almost every night before tido wajib nanges2 secara diam sampai tak boleh nafas *hidung penuh hingusan*. bangun pagi je mata sembab cam anak jepun tapi hidung cam jawa.

haritu aku cam betul2 dah meroyan sampai suh mak aku gi cari mana2 ustaz bagi aku air ke pe tuk lupakan n tenangkan hati. huh. memang tragik. mak bapak n akak aku memang super risau ngan aku. aku pun tak tau la. tahap meroyan aku memang tragik. tengok tv pun tiba2 boleh nanges. kan aku dah cakap bab cintan cintun aku memang sangat lemah. maybe pas kitorang cerai ni aku terasa sungguh lonely. can u imagine sebelum ni kitorang msg each other 24/7 and call almost every night. and bila dh cerai semua tu xde dah. hs aku sunyi sepi. xpayah guna hs pun xpe. cz memang dah tak rancak cam dulu.

tapi last sunday akak aku call and bebel panjang lebar coz dia betul2 risau tengok aku meroyan. and aku baru sedar dia xappreciate aku langsung. sebelum ni macam2 aku pk nak sedapkan hati. try to deny everything. semua yang dia dah buat kat aku, aku cam pk positif. aku terima je. but then aku sedar. selama ni aku wat macam2 kat dia tapi bila salah faham camni terus dia nk cerai. memang kejam.

so sekarang aku dah okay la. still rasa lonely. still sedih gak bila nampak benda2 yang related to him. but life must go on. bak kata2 orang kat sekeliling aku "ada orang yang lebih baik utk aku kat luar tu". so let's cross our finger and hoping for the best. thanks again to those yang banyak support aku:)

notakaki: misi mencari bf baru. ada ke? ready ke?? huhu.. xready lagi looo:(

all the single ladies

yeay.. mari menari ala2 beyonce ngan background lagu all the single ladies 2.. jgn lupe pakai bikini yg 1 piece bersama legging *jangan imagine aku pakai cm 2.. mmg mimpi ngeri*

yes rakan2..
i'm OFFICIALLY


SINGLE

sebenarnya dh bout 2 weeks aku single.. tapi since aku ni bab cintan cintun mmg lemah gile sampai diserang demam kuning *apakah*, so aku xdelah bagitau kat orang lain except dua rakan yang banyak menyokong and bagi semangat.. makaseh anda:) *u know who u are*

at 1st memang super susah aku nak cope ngan being single ni. mane taknye. 9 tahun aku hidup de bf.. de perasaan disayangi oleh sumone. tiba2 BOOM!!! sume hilang. takda. elek. gone.. huhu.. and since semalam sudah menjalankan sesi LET'S TELLING THE TRUTH bersama amak and apak so arini bole la aku mengofficialkan status aku ni *eceh*

aku memang la sdih.. super sedih wooo.. tapi nak wat camne kan?? org dah xsuka kita xleh nk paksa.. mmg la at 1st aku still harap benda 2 xjadi.. tapi dah lama tunggu2 and harap2 but still tak dapat ubah keputusan dia so aku pun redha jelah.. huhu

tapi btol gak pe yg kwn aku cakap.. dia break ngan aku time umur aku 24thun.. time aku dh patut ada calon laki tuk nak dijadikan husband.. tapi time ni la aku dah xde laki.. aku xsuka nak cari or kenal laki baru.. nak start all over again. huaaa.. memang aku xsuka.

and last nite aku cakap kat mak aku "mama.. mesti mama risau kan nana dh break ni? yelah.. nanti nana pun jadi anak dara tua" pastu tros mak aku peluk aku.. huhuhu.. sdih wooo.. cam drama gitu.. semalam gak apak aku dtg kat aku and slow talk ngan aku.. huhu.. memang lawak bile apak mau slow talk bab cintan cintun ngan aku.. tp aku sgt2 appreciate pe mak pak aku dah wat.. and akak aku pun mcm2 dia wat nak distract aku dari igt bout 2.. and rerakan yang tadi 2.. always bagi aku semangat bagi aku jd sekuat harimau.. hehe

bila aku bgtau akak n mak aku bout aku single ni, at 1st dorang igt aku mamain.. yelah aku ckp pn cm xserius. aku g kat amak.. pgg bahu dia n pandang mata and aku cakap.. "mama.. nana dah single.. hahahaha" and bedesup masuk dapur cz air mata + air idong tercicir.. aku kan macho. mne bole nanges2 kat mak apak.. and from dapur aku bole dgr mak aku gelak... "hahaha.. yelah 2. dah single pun hepi gelak2.. memain la 2.. kang betol2 jadi.. padan muke".. skali aku kuar dapur ngan mata de cecair mak aku pun terdiam and timbul la sesi soal jawab bersama KAK GEE..

walau pe pun.. family aku sume ckp dat msti nnt dia akan cari aku balik.. but if dia xdatang balik.. maknanya dia tak appreciate pe aku dh wat selama ni and i should forget bout him.. bout dis.. aku pun xsure. rasa dia xkan datang kat aku balik kot..

so sesape yang teringin nak aku jadi akak ipar or adik ipar dorang boleh la wat appointment nnt ye? nak aku jadi abang ipar pon bole aje.. i sudi.. hahaha


notakaki: sumtimes when we love sumone so much, xkire pe gak yang dia wat or myb he's the main reason kita sedih.. kite still akan terima dia lagi.. huhu.. bodoh kan camtu? yup2.. aku pun sedar aku bodoh.. aku dah kne tako kangkang kot.. hehehe

sharing is caring

i found all these pics and quotes in tumblr.. and its been my pleasure to share it wif u guys:)

You promised me forever, but you couldn't even give me tomorrow.
You said we'd be friends, but now we're strangers.
I'm nothing to you...
And what makes it worse, is that you're still everything to me.

can we pretend that GOLDFISH are like FAIRY GODPARENTS,
i could really need a wish right now

Sometimes you have to run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you have to talk quieter, just to see who's actually listening. Sometimes you have to take a step back, just to see who's still standing by your side. Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision, just to see who's there when it all falls down. Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back.

notakaki: ske tumblr.. cz i can reblog other people nyer posts yang de kaitan or yang kite suka.. and most of the posts adalah sgt cute and meaningful... love love love

DAH

aku dah abes ganti puasa
aku dah abes bayar nazar puasa
aku dah beli 1 pasang raju raya *huh.. semangat disitu*
aku dah jumpa baju yg berkenan dihati tuk dijadikan baju raya no 2
aku dah anta baju nak pakai time wedding kazen aku kat tailor *beli kain 25hengget je 4meter but upah jahit sampai 95hengget cz aku wat baju kurung moden*
aku dah sebulan lebih tak makan nasi *berjaya turun 4kg pastu dia dah tak turun2 dah*
aku dah lebih 2 bulan tak minum carbonated drinks *gegel-gegel bile tengok coke kat mcD*
aku dah setahun menjadi gadis berkerjaya
aku dah 2 tahun lebih tak tido kat bilik aku sorang2
aku dah 7 bulan tak jumpa mr kekaseh *sabo nana.. sok boleh jumpe puas2 dah*
AKU DAH TAK SABAR NAK JUMPA KEKASEH SOK *nak pegang dia all the time xmo lepas.. hehehe*


sebenarnya 2 je motif aku.. nak bagitau aku dh puas meroyan ditingalkan menjanda and betol2 tak sabo mau jumpa sok~lalala wawawa rarara gagaga



notakaki: pe nak pakai sok? arini de jcard day kat jasco wangsa maju. bole tak nak cari baju dating for 2moro? kompem orang ramai cam ulat taik *adaptasi dari ayat pebret my apak*

4 months already

i'm 4month pregnant!!
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hoi-hoi. gila ke pe aku ni!!

mana boleh pregnant. kahwin pun belum. tunang pn tak nampak bayang lagi bila. kekasih pn tak sure lagi nak kat aku ke tak. wuuuuuu.. saya sangat sedih okay

sebenarnya aku dah 4 bulan tak jumpa kekasih hati. maknanya dah 4 bulan xnampak gigi lapis dia, dah 4 bulan tak TERSENTUH tangan dia, dah 4 bulan tak tengok lobang hidung dia yang obviously lagi mancung dari hidung jawa aku, dah 4 bulan xlentok kepala kat bahu dia *mengkantoikan diri sendiri aku ni*, dah 4 bulan tak makan sama-sama sambil saling tenung mata masing-masing, dah 4 bulan since the last time kitorang makan ice cream sama-sama, main bowling berdua, try makanan baru bersama, dan melakukan perkara-perkara lain tatkala pasangan kekasih bercanda ria.

sedihnya bila kekasih jauh dimata and hampir-hampir jauh di hati*oppss*. memang sangat problem bila kita in long distance relationship. lagi la aku ni selalu rasa cam kesunyian especially bila tengok orang lain dating. wuu. sedih.. nanti if aku curang orang cop aku ni gatal and perempuan tak baik plak.

tak pe. sekarang ni bersabar jelah. if ada jodoh tak kemana. tp jangan la ko suruh aku tunggu sampai 10 tahun pakcik oi. aku ni pun bernafsu nak kawen gak. kalo aku tunggu ko and ko buat selambe je, mau andartu aku ni. dah la mak apak aku dah de ura-ura nak main jodoh-jodoh ni. pengaruh rakan sebaya sungguh.


notakaki: paku dulang paku serpih. mengata orang dia yang lebih *tak ada kaitan pun sebenarnya*

how i plan to spend my life wif u

i found dis while i'm blog walking + curi tulang kt opis..
but i can't remember who's da blogger so i can't credit dat blogger for putting dis cute thing n let me put it in my blog..

nway.. we *mr kekaseh n i* already passed step 1 n 2.. but i think step 3 will be looooonnnnggggg way to go..


notakaki: nk mkn pisang kaki wif kaki ayam smbil garu kaki

mari belajar berjiwang

hati ngah b'bunga2 cm bunge kt taman..

sungguh hepi mcm dpt topi..
rasa bahagia cm .. *xtau cm pe*
nape anda sweet sgt ni ha??

bru cm nk mrajuk cz dh lme xb'temu
ble suh dtg asik bg alasan nk kumpul duit
tp ble dh dpt payment, duit banyak g bli brg bkn2
abes ratus2 bli brg boleh
tp nk dtg jmp xbulih plak
sdih2

apa anda bli??
external hard disc n dumbell??
for wat??

rupenye dat external hard disc tuk msukkan sims 3 yg aku idamkan
rupenye die dh try cri rata2 n tlg donlodkan tuk aku
n since size t'lalu besar n xmuat pendrive 8g,
die pn bli hard disc so dat bleh bwk time jmp aku satu hari nnt

n dumbell 2 tuk pe??
rupenye b4 dis aku de ckp aku suke sgt kt channing tatum..
aku bgtau die aku cm ske tgk body si channing tatum 2..
lg la bahu die
tgk bwh ni.. spe x t'goda??? *haih*

rupenye slame ni dia duk usaha nk dpt body cm mamat 2..

aku xsuh pn ok..
die yg nk jd cm 2..
dia ckp 'cz ** ske tgk body cm2.. nk ** ske tgk body b gak'
alololo.. aku rse cm sweet plak.. xsweet kah??
xpe aku still rse sweet:)

ptot la pg2 n ptg2 (tghari die jwb je) if aku curik tulang n msg die, die xjwb..
rupenye sibuk mensihatkan bdn..

wah.. saya hepi..
xsangka saya anda b'usaha kuat tuk saya

xpe2 kte tgk usaha anda cukup kuat x.. heeee


notakaki: aduhai.. if die makin tuff cmne ngan aku yg makin gemok ni??? oh no.. aku dh gemok tegar.. diet b'bulan2 pn still xkurus.. wuuu.. sdihnye.. if anda dh kurus n semakin tuff jgn la tinggalkan saya yg semakin gemok ni ye??